26th August: I went out with the fencing gang to watch The Proposal! There were 11 of us: Caleb, Nicole, Priscilla, Wen Rui, Kenneth, Grace, Niko, Daphne, Dominic and Tudor. And me yay. Initial plan was to have brunch, but suddenly the idea of a movie popped up.
So we headed to Plaza Sing, after finding out that that's the only place with the movie at 11.20am! We made a lot of noise on the bus, they're probably gonna sue us. Not that it really bothers me... anyway, we all rushed to get the tickets. It was already 11.20am, but we had 15 minutes before the movie really starts. Thus, we split up and went to buy our lunch! Caleb, Nicole, Priscilla and me went to Burger King. Surprisingly I could stuff the lunch set into my bag o.o Everyone of us sneaked food in. We got caught, FYI. By this lady who said she could smell our food -.-" I think it's just that Tudor was eating a six-inch long subway sandwich, and Niko and Daphne were eating rice!
The Proposal was freaking awesome! :D I have to agree their love was not developed enough, but the movie was highly entertaining! Good mixture of romance and comedy. Here's a quote:
Margaret: I am not getting in that boat! Andrew: Fine, see you in three days. Margaret: You know I can't swim! Andrew: Hence... the *boat*.
It was hilarious, i don't really give a shit about what the reviewers think! Honestly the movie is just meant to touch your hearts and make you LOL like nobody's business. Talking about that, I sat in between Wen Rui and Caleb. Wen Rui was relatively quiet throughout, while Caleb kept laughing and making comments. Two different worlds.
Afterwards, we made up some excuse about the bus breaking down, because we were late for training! We even called Justin to tell him that. The coach wanted photo proof. It was so obvious that we were lying!
I'll miss the fencing peeps. Will only be seeing all of them again in November ._.
After training, I rushed to meet ST and we went to visit Debby to surprise her! But we failed! At first we got the unit number wrong and got lost -.-" But when we finally found the correct door, she wasn't in! :( So we had to pass the present to her mom. The present was a bikini. Ftw.
Random: guys may be simple-minded, but they certainly confuse me.
Moving on!
29th August: the Picnic Gang except LY went to the beach! Yayness! It was a belated celebration for Debby! She wore her bikini! We met lots of pervs there when we (me, debbs, st) took a walk. I rolled my eyes at one of the guys, and Debby wanted to flash her camera at another one. She's the one attracting the most attention! Ruo Nan left halfway boo.
SIDENOTE: I want to give Ruo Nan a super belated thanks for helping me with my GP essay! :) HAha. You rock. Oh, and my brother, for looking out for me :)
31st August: I pon-ed school today, so that I could return to BBSS. Went to 'consult' doctor, and ended up paying a consultation fee of $14 plus $4.20 worth of medicine I didn't need! That's when I remembered that being a non-singaporean, I don't have the privilege of getting these services cheap. FML. So I returned home and received a brief scolding from my mom. After that things went back to normal, she just warned me to never do it again, complained that I should've faked cold because she needed cold medicine, and said after I finish paying the bill (i could only pay 10 bucks first), I should hand her the recipe so she can try to claim from the company. HAHA. I know she isn't that mad at me because she knows I know that she knows that I know that my dad knows that she knows that I know that when she was young, she's played truancy before. And my dad was a bad boy too, so he forgave me quickly. Budden later that day, I reflected on all the wrong things I did today. Wrong things I did for reasons I deem to be right. It certainly wasn't a wise decision, the consequence was more bad than good. Like, abandoning my PW group =/ I FEEL SO GUILT-WRECKED. But for that while, I seem to have followed my heart and lived my life the way I wanted it to be, living in the moment. :)
Can you do the same? I don't think so.
Of course, I still will NEVER pon school again!! In any case, it was good to see old friends! Mr Lattif was so mild about me skipping shcool, he said as long as my parents know it's perfectly fine. HAHA HE ROCKS RIGHT. Regretfully I had to tell Mdm Yeo I got U for maths. Her expression was priceless, as usual :)
I know this post sounds super rushed and mundane! I'll try to edit some other time. -poofs-
Yesterday's J1 Retreat was... long. 14 hours of reflection! My legs nearly died from sitting almost non-stop for 13 hours (1 hour for lunch+dinner). But I guess I did learn a couple of stuff. Such as, if you want to be patient, God doesn't make you so, he gives you the OPPORTUNITY to be patient. That one was memorable. The rest are kind of vague, lol. They had these envelopes for everyone to pin up on the notice board, to allow others to leave 'mail', little messages of love. And it was fun because some of us went around being good Samaritans and looking for envelopes with barely nothing inside. We found one with nothing at all D: so we dropped a couple of notes.
And this is where I learnt a personal lesson on my own, besides being kind. See, when I took back my envelope, there was this stalker-ish message that goes: "I've always been looking at you. xoxo" Somehow, I think people would be more willing to believe that he cockeyed and put it in the wrong envelope (bcos the one beside mine belongs to a pretty girl, and we saw a bunch of guys gather at one point to leave notes), or that he meant it for fun like, just writing random messages and leaving them at random envelopes. They'd rather believe that than think that it was genuinely meant for me. It doesn't take a lot of people for me to know they'd think that way, just one or two was enough. And I realize that, I can't blame them AT ALL, because fact is, I was the first to think that way. And because of that, I had two realizations yesterday:
1. I have no confidence in myself at all. Then how can I expect people to be confident of me? No one is allowed to make me feel inferior, that's like an official human right or something, haha. Yet I let that happen. Why? Most of the time too, the other party is actually really nice - applicable to this case :) So that I'm the one putting myself down. And that's the absolute worst form of inferiority, when it comes from yourself. If I want people to respect me, I better respect myself.
2. This particular guy I've known for more than two years. He had said a lot a lot of nice things, simple ones like, "You're pretty." or "You're special." and I might not have believed it then, but I know he really meant them, and he never wanted me to change for anything or anyone. It was just nice to know there's someone besides God who'll always think that you're beautiful. But 'always' is over now, I guess. I'm not going to say my decision was wrong, but I do feel bad for whatever I've said. And I do miss him, at least, just as a friend.
Anyways, haha, something funny happened during fencing on Friday. Me and Carissa lied and completely tricked Niko, confused Monisha and nearly tricked Soong Teck, by saying we were from 1T28. Caleb's class, and that we took BCME combination. Such is the power of persistence, that Niko began to believe she saw me during her H2 chem lecture, Soong Teck believed he saw the wrong person during his lit lecture, and Monisha really thought I didn't take lit. And Carissa is awesome at lying, I just had to look at her for two seconds and she knew instantly wht to do. Hahaha. Soong Teck was horrified that we were such awesome liars, and decided to find out everyone's classes first. Annabel said she's from 1T35 and he trusted her, then he asked Niko if she's from 1T32 and she was like nuuuu that's Annabel's class! Then he got horrified all over again but after that found out Niko made a msitake.
He never wanted to trust girls again after that two incidents. He thinks we are scary creatures. :D
Few days back Caleb sent me a World Stealing day sms, and it was so random and funny. It's like if you could steal something from that person, what would you steal? Lol.
I un-autoplayed the mixpod playlist to put this video! It doesn't matter if you're going to bother to watch, I just feel better putting it here. It's an awesome Mediacorp production, I remember it from 2005. And they're re-running it now, YAY. I loved the series. A large part of it would probably be credited to the chemistry between Meiman and Raymond, it's really quite amazing. And Meiman is not even a Singaporean actress, haha. I was ranting about it to Ruo Nan just now heh. Plus, for some reasons I was impressed with the first part of the video, before the chorus. It was well put together. Hahaha I'm like praising Singapore. And Hong Kong.
I REALLY NEED TO STUDY :(
Today, Jack told me that he wanted to walk his turtle. After that he ranted to me about vending machines that sell pads. FML?
Anyways, I've been slacking SO MUCH. SHIT. AND I have a fencing theory test on idunnowhen, since I have that J1 Retreat for Catholics on Saturday. I need to pass this test .___. But it's like... 69 pages long! But that includes content page and sabre/foil stuff that I don't have to study, haha, but still. It'll still amount to at least 40 pages that I need to study. Sighs.
I don't think we have homework right? Do we? Even so I really really REALLY need to study. All the tests I've been doing last week have been done really badly. I kinda feel the pressure and panic that there's only 50 days left to promos, but somehow... i'm not doing anything about it. I really need to find a source of inspiration man. AND, I need to do well for the fencing competition end of year. I need to find a way not to panic and get all excited or whatshit, and then lose all the points.
I've decided not to try so hard to make people approve of me. Fact is, I can't make everyone do so. i'm not very nice or anything, and i don't have any extreme talent or whatever. So what? Appreciate those who like me anyway, and move on from those who can't. Seriously, haha. Need to stop being un-myself, I find that I do that sometimes. It's tiring.
Back to Jack's turtle. After that comment he said he once let the turtle out and it got lost. HAHA SO CUTE. And he started describing the way it walked in its flippers. Hahaha the turtle is really nice, it waves at me when i look at it!
Heh, sorry for the boring post. Nothing much to say. It's mostly to vent out whatever I'm feeling. still annoyed at myself for slacking too much. What's new?
Omg! I had no idea Bennie was a romantic guy! HAHAHAHA. Sandwiches and cookies and sweet moments! WEWT. He spent a few hours telling me about a lot of interesting stuff about his past that made me go O.O and about a girl he currently likes! Which he doesn't want to tell who. So random can. Out of nowhere. Just... omg. Haha.
For some reason him telling me all this is reminding me a lot about how I met LY! When we first became friends, he told me a lot of stuff about someone. And that was how we became closer friends.
Irony.
Omg the dejavu o_o Bennie sounds so similar to LY when he tells me a whole bunch of emotional stuff all of a sudden. So similar to him! really really really you are, bennie. :D
I has 8 packets of chocolate in the fridge that I'm trying to finish off haha. But there are three which are milk chocolates and I don't think I can finish those. Haha I'm being so random.
Firstly, I want that urban guy! :D -nudges lizzie and cass-
My mother told me yesterday about the sms she received which I received a long time ago, lousy her! Hahaha. On seventh of august, which was yesterday, at 12:34:56, the time and date would be 123456789. It will only happen once in your whole life! And she said, so what? At that moment, on 6th August 2009, 8:13:10pm, it also would only happen only once! Omg, she finally says something I can completely agree on.
WHY ARE WE NOT CHERISHING EVERY MOMENT THEN? SINCE THEY ONLY HAPPEN ONCE IN YOUR LIFETIME? haha. You want a reason why you should treasure every moment of your life? There you have it. Because everyone of them is unique to its own, and it won't ever happen again once it's past. Which also led me to ponder over how transient life is. And how fast time passes. Many moments have passed as I'm typing this lol.
Ahh. I think I think too much.
Today was NDP celebrations. I admit I was disappointed when I saw the balloon-ish flag today at National Day celebrations. We were supposed to go into the Guiness Book of World Records! But it was so SMALL. And lumpy. Imperfection. I took a photo though, but I'm lazy to upload because it's 1am. But I guess it still was a creative effort by CJ :) But I think next year some other school will probably go and break it. If they even heard of it.
We wanted to go back to BBSS but ST was sick, and Bryant went off to play pool. The rest didn’t come idk why. So me and Debby just went West Mall and I watched her eat because I alr ate with the CJ gang (we must really think of a name!) We walked around and I found a nice white-silver hp pouch. it’s a bit shinyish but it was only $3.90. I saw another one which was awesome and had that cute Cards n Such teddy at the back. But it was made of thin cloth and was $8.90. The other one had the softer material that I like. Only it’s shiny and I’m still wondering how they made it shine. And since it’s cheap if it spoils/gets lost like my old pouch I’ll be fine.
Walked around some more and found the present Debby wanted to give to her dearest Eric! I don't care man debbs, i think he won't see this right? :D
Then we camped at food court because there was a TV! And they were re-showing the series "You Are The One" and when I saw it I was like omgomgomgg we must sit there! It was one of my favourite dramas then because the romance was so cute. And I was younger like, sec 1 or 2 at that time. Hahahaha. I had really believed something fairytale-like like that can happen in real life. So innocent right?
Debby got kind of hooked as well so we bought food and sat there for an hour plus.
Anyway, it was fun to catch up! :) We talked a lot and I don’t remember most of the converstaions because they were random.
So here I am now. Ahhh. This week had been... well, normal. Absent on monday, came back to school on tuesday. Been slacking seriously, I'm SO far behind on maths! I told yanting i'd try to finish differentiation by thursday and i haven't even started hahahahaa.
Facebook is so addictive!
Who was in the wrong? Nobody knows. I just want to wish this person happiness. :)
I was listening to Jason Mraz's song "The Remedy" and the chorus was, "I won't worry my life away." And then I thought about the decision I made recently. I know not a lot of people know about this and maybe it's not significant but to me it is. Though I don't really want to talk about it. Anyways, I realize how true the lyrics of JM's song are. And thus began my pondering (as usual).
And I wished that people would follow their hearts once in a while. Sure it may lead you to do the wrong things. Maybe it did for me. I make mistakes and wrong decisions, I cry, I regret. I thought I'd never get over it, but I will. But. Great things come from following your own heart. Someone (famous?) said this I can't remember haha. Worrying about repeating a mistake is like... inevitable. But, foolish, because WE MAKE MISTAKES. We will ALWAYS make mistakes, and you grow stronger from them! You can try not to, but don't get too uptight about it. "Borders don't keep other people out, they keep you fenced in. You can waste your life drawing lines, or spend your life crossing them." - DUNNOWHO
And, If you can't forget a past that once hurt you, then don't. Bury it in your heart (this is from FTLY YAYY). In the future it will quietly help you, and you learn your lessons. Learn them, but don't live in them. Because if you're too obsessed with it you forget what's before you. You don't dare to do something again because once bitten, twice shy. People, important people who care, may pass you by because you're afaid of opening your heart to them. Because sometimes we can't trust our hearts, and we betray them. (Heathcliff and Catherine ftw)
But it's okay isn't it? Bad things that happen. LIke they say, don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. Eventually, when it's all done, you look back and it's the beautiful memories that you remember. And this is probably the great thing that you get from listening to your heart, if the ending didn't turn out good.
That's life for you. Time pass, hearts change, people move on. But we go on living don't we? And while we do so, why not make the most of it? :) If tomorrow was your last day on Earth, who would you spend it with? Definitely not homework, not games, whatever. Those won't matter anymore.
Love, while you have the chance to. Some people want to but they can't even find others to love! Finally don't worry and be happy :) as the saying goes.
But that doesn't mean you shouldn't study. Shoo shoo. It's 62 more days to Promos! I'm just saying don't be too caught up! HAHA. So much for my long thingy. Hope it entertained you. Idc if anyone disagrees, to each his own! If people even read it heh.
The person I want most to read it, probably wouldn't think it's applicable to them at all ._.
ANYWAYS. Today! Return to school! The only thing I can remember the whole day ws the Subway outing! Hahaha. With Cassandra, Jayne, Elizabeth, Sheryl, Wei Yan, Nicole, David and meeeee. Woot. AND WE SAW TWO EFFING HOT GUYS! Tall. Medium-muscular. Slightly tanned. Caucasian. Young. Ahhhhhhh. I was like O-O and was the first time in a long time I had that woah reaction. Haha.
David was the only guy! Then again he's comfortable because he's asexual! But he was cooperative and helped to look out for guys? Plus when we see one he'd start telling me his professional criticism ahaha.
If only I could go to sleep now and wake up as 16-year-old again. What wouldn't I give to relive the moments of 2008 in BBSS.. :)
Ahhhhhh I hate JC life! I haven't finished GP and Maths because half the weekends I've been wandering around half-dead due to H1N1. The other half i spend slacking, of course. I'm hoping that tomorrow i'll wake up with a fever and one more day MC! Sigh.
... The hugs you gave made me think that you never wanted to let me go :(
I'm SICK. I took my temperature before school on friday, it was 37.4, not a fever yet. But in school, it rose slightly to 37.5. And after the maths test, it was at 37.9 degrees celcius. The class started panicking and some of them were paranoid and wanted to stay away. I was really annoyed. Is that how 'faceless' society is? Ah well. I was grumpy anyway, due to the fever. And there were still many friends who cared. Lucky :)
So I signed the form and everything and went home. Actually, I wanted to come to school cause I wanted to get back my EOM and take the maths test. In the end, I left my EOM draft in class. What a genius.
Went to the nearby clinic, the doctor said I fulfilled the criteria of H1N1. He gave me four days of MC inclusive of Monday, and if the fever/cough got worse, I'd have to come back to test for H1N1.
And in the middle of the night yesterday, I took my temperature and it rose to 39 degrees celcius. Ahh.
It still is dropping and rising randomly.
Sigh.
Anyways, on monday, the class brought the cake :D It had three pikachus on top and I brought one home! Whee~ On Wednesday, we celebrated Nicole's birthday! The guys ran ahead for the Mt Rosie route, and they brought out the cake to surprise Nicole when she came back.
