Mow.

Meow de Meow Mow :)

Thanks Debby (:
I'm feeling normal now.

I think I'm supposed to give an explanation.. feeling so sian now~
After that emo session, I retired to my room, since I can't go jogging as my parents feared I'd get:
1. Robbed
2. Raped
3. Kidnapped
4. Murdered
Or that I'd trip because it's so dark and fall and die, or a tree would drop on me, or I'd get run over by a bus or whatever.
I blasted the radio in my ears. 98.7 said yesterday that everybody were feeling bored. I listened till my ears hurt, so I stopped and concentrated on physics. I used the Fleming's left hand rule until my hand hurt. So I took the literature paper, then put it down again because I didn't understand a single damn thing due to my mood except for the fact that T.S Eliot hates the very guts of this world.

Here we go round the prickly pear
Prickly pear, prickly pear
Here we go round the prickly pear
At five o'clock in the morning.

This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but with a whimper

In the end, I focused on E Maths. And there, as I was getting extremely peeved over the undefinable shape of my graph, fuming over the fact that I SO didn't need that then, Debby texted me :)
I told her a bit here and there.
Haha I know what a freak I sounded like, blame it on my mother! Or father! Or whoever who created the DISC thing, making me buy into it and become even more insecure.
She said I was a strange girl for a reason I couldn't say out here.


I think I'm freaking scared the lack of compatibility of our personalites could very well be the thing to cut our friendship in the future.
After lots of discussion with Debby, I concluded that pan-asians are the best! HAHA. See how much China Beauty affected me? :D Oh the glee.

In any case, I could do nothing but mourn over the fact that I have a sucky personality, and harbour the thought that my pan-asian Prince Charming (okay i know i gotta stop obsessing about pan-asians T_T) would sweep me up onto his white horse and whisk me away to the North Pole, where we'd live in a cottage underneath the northern lights. Oh, but he has to sell his horse first. The white steed would fall in love with a black mare. Santa shall be our mentor to preach us about morals and God, and the little elves shall be our friends. Yes, elves are way cooler than pixies. Long story short: I was competing with Bryant about who knew more and ended up claiming we have magical friends that told us divine knowledge. And the rave about LOTR and Peter Pan and whatever; that was the weirdest conv I've ever had, maybe I'll post it some day.
Why am I even telling you about my arguement with Bryant?



So, I woke up this morning with two smses, one from Debby who fell asleep (it was about 12.30 am), one from him asking if i was okay.
I think sometimes he really is oblivious, because he thought I was upset over someone else.
I'm a very long-winded person, so if I told him everything, I'd waste up to 10 smses+. So I decided against Debby's method of thrashing it out.
I didn't know how to put it across in a way that wouldn't be hurtful.

The story goes: he asked questions i couldn't answer, so i didn't answer and asked him questions, he didn't want to answer and seemed to have lost his cool, so i lost my cool as well, then he found his cool but i hadn't so i went on using sarcasm, he didn't seem to detect it (which could be a good thing), so i asked him another question, he replied coldly, then i stopped talking to him. after which he asked about me again, and it went on and on until he realized i didn't trust him, which must've hurt but i couldn't help being such a terrible person.
And this is where I shall stop.





^ These are the remains of the piece of paper i tore when i was upset. HAHA. I took a long time today piecing them together, then scattered them again when i read a few lines and realized it was nothing important. THANK GOODNESS. If that had been the chemistry paper, I'd have to answer to Mrs Ooi.

I found this whole episode very unnecessary. In any case, I did wish it hadn't happened at all. Thy art of remorse.

I felt that I should make it up to him, which sounds really odd because I was supposed to be the victim here. Oh whatever, I'll see if God! will send me a dream x) He does sometimes. It helps.

Haha, but i went on smsing Debby throughout the whole thing, and we argued over who's richer:

Debby: You live in hillview leh!
Me: So? You live in cck leh!
Debby: Very posh meh. Sounds like a dump.


I did a double flip when she said that xD The first person who ever said that!
So we each took a step back and admitted that both of us were poor.
HAHA that was hilarious. Bringing in the wine issue was completely random xD


I'm really not filthy rich okay, not all chinese indonesians have to be filthy rich. Again, this comment is thanks to Ms. Lau. Or was that Mrs. Toh?



I didn't study today! Argh. Anyway I wasn't in the mood for it. Never mind, daddy got me a study table in jakarta so i can study. the wallpaper in the room is bubbly, and i'm hoping that would inspire me to do my work. I think i'd be distracted by the Wii outside though, my dad bought a kitchen game that was supposedly for me. So childish, but so fun 8) I had wanted the cats game, but oh well.

Followed my dad to the doctor today.. our whole family, that is. He's feverish. I wonder if he already passed me the virus, that'll be so cool.




^ Saw this BMW and it was sooooo ultra cool. Very posh, very outstanding, not fitting into the surroundings. The effect in this photo is cool too xD I stared at it together with my dad =P Like father, like daughter. After all, no matter how 'filthy rich' we are, we could never afford that.
Huh. Bicycles still pwn BMWs :D

Ruo Nan invited me to go running again just now. I had to turn her down. I did reason with my parents this morning. I told them I knew fighting moves and they laughed and i was insulted. I mean, I do know the basic vulnerable points of a guy, and which part of my arm or legs is most powerful. I was quite pissed when they still thought I'd get raped. As if I'm very eye-catching like that. If you want to, I can borrow my brother's clothes so that I'd be completely covered. Then I'd wear a helmet so they might assume I'm a retarded guy. But then the police might arrest me thinking I was Mas Selamat, even though I'm clearly taller than he is.
I can even put soot on my face so that all the guys would be turned off.
Then I'd invite like, 20 girls to go with me.
Maybe then I would be allowed to go jogging at 10pm.

Haiz.

I still have to compose 2 letters, one to Mdm Yeo indicating why I'd miss lessons this friday, and another to Ms Punitha, giving the reason as to why I'd miss both her physics remedials.
Haha how convenient. I write the letters, then my mother sign.

Darn, I can't be late again tomorrow :(

posted by Michelle @ 8:30 PM