Mow.

To her: I see.. so that's the problem. If I have made you feel belittled, I apologize. I don't see how you saw that I chose other friends over you. If it's RN you're talking about, she's been my friend for 3 years and more. She's put in that much into our friendship, and I'm returning it in the same amount. Maybe I'm really dense, but in what way is that choosing her over you? I'm also putting in effort into our friendship, aren't I? I don't hang out with you everyday because sometimes I can tell you're in a bad mood and I'm the kind that chooses the safe side, because if I say something it might just make things worse. It's not because you're a lousy person; it's because you're in a lousy mood. Honestly, you've been expecting a lot from me, and I don't blame you for it. But, it's sometimes a lot for me to comply, what with all the pressure I'm facing. I know I ignore you sometimes, but it's not because I don't like you. It's because at that point, I was in the lousiest mood I could ever find myself in. It could be due to the stupid endless homework teachers piled on us, stupid tests I flunked because of the incredibly incapable teachers at the head of the subject, or personal feelings and problems.. but it just destroyed my mood. Needless to say, I don't feel like talking or facing anyone; not just you, the world. Cause if I do reply, it might be really snappy and hurtful, so I chose to 'i didn't hear you'. I hope you can understand that I have my moody moments, and hence appear as the selfish and thoughtless friend. Maybe I really am a selfish and thoughtless friend.
Sorry for that.
Sorry for being the hopeless me I am.
:)

You Are 34% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

^ See? Void that part about evil lurking in my heart and my hiding it, and especially the part about the most dangerous kind of evil... that's nonsense. I'm only 34% evil and 80% good x)

Your True Love's Name Is

Craig P.

^ Are you kidding me?? Just after I told Simraan her friend Craig sounds like a nice guy?! ._.

Hello people!
Felt like saying that.

I had a weird dream yesterday night.
I dreamt that Leong Yew became my boyfriend for real O.O
Must be from all that talk and questions... got into my sub-conscious mind.
Yeah, and in the dream, he did something that hurt me badly.
I don't know, I have a bad memory... just something bad kay?
Anyway, whatever he did hurt me to the extent I was planning to initiate a breakup.
Then suddenly, we were talking. He was happily telling me about his day? And I felt important in that dream?
And I faltered.
And I never mentioned the breakup.
Note: I'm not trying to say anything, so don't analyze every sentence to find an answer x) This goes out to mah fellow literature friends and especially to Leong Yew.

The dream changed and now it was a scene in the classroom.
I dreamt that I brought a new correction tape to school and Alan wanted to borrow it.
o.o
I actually spoke up =O
It cut off Alan's protest.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHa xP LOL? I have split personality? I'm less of a pushover in my dreams. Haha. But it's only in dreams.

And I woke up, thinking, what a weird dream...

Anyway, the whole thing about dreams freaked me out.
The probability of my dream coming true is 0.01. I know, because 2 of my dreams were basically predictions of the future. Or was that a coincidence?
But the chances are not zero.

That means, that, that, that, that, that, that and this dream might come true. Probability that all would come true?
Count it yourself.
Brain-dead.


Oh yeah, I met up again with Mabel. I think that's her name?
I know her far back to my primary school days.
She was an avid Alvin fan. Chased him everywhere. The typical girl.
She kept pestering me too, when I was in primary 5 around there, kept telling me to tell my brother she likes him and everything.
You could say I was a little annoyed and frightened cause i was still young.

We met her at KFC. It's probably fate, but she was also in JJC. My brother was so-called 'reunited' with her after four years.
In KFC, she was like, "Hey Alvin! What are you doing here?"
And she reached up and pinched his cheek lightly.
To top it all, she added, "You're so cute."
I was O.O
-cough-
I don't know what to say about this.. err, so-called 'pairing'.
In some ways, it's kinda fated and sweet. But I simply never anticipated it.
Then again, you can't anticipate these kind of things.

Enough ranting. Have to slog, 10 chinese ti gangs to do, 1 compo, 1 and 1/2 literature essays, chemistry papers etc.
BYE.

posted by Michelle @ 3:30 PM