Mow.

Stop giving me that look, Leong Yew. It's freaky.

Not only him, too. Recently, there are many who gave me different looks. Those who stare, forgiven; maybe I'm just weird and I accept that. Those who glare; why?! Some really give me that... er, ACCUSING look, as if I did something wrong =.= and I don't even know them that well. So I hope these people would be frank. There's no truth I can't accept.

An earth-shaking thing happened today. Person 1, for the first time I remembered, broke down because of Person 2's words. I chided Person 2 after that, because I perfectly understood how Person 1 would feel. I feel bad for telling Person 2 off, but after all, I'm older.
A while later, Person 1 cried. Person 3's emotions was triggered and she cried as well. I wanted to cry, but somehow, the numbness surfaced and I felt nothing. We left them alone for a moment, but afterwards, went to comfort them.
I then told Person 1 I was disappointed in her.
This was because I always thought she was stronger than me.
In a situation like this, advices like, "You have to work harder or you'll never get into JC!!" would make them feel worse.
I am an SI person, an advisor.
I searched my brain for any, erm, natural skills.
Came up with only, "I expect you to stay as strong as you were before."

-sigh-

We all trooped off to West Mall for a little celebration. As usual, we made a fool of ourselves -_-" Hopefully not many noticed. At McDonalds, Person 2 started scheduling a study plan for us.
Thinking of it make me really tired ='(
Then Person 4 started a let-down party, when she let down her hair.
Person 3 followed, and then Person 2.
Since Person 1 has short hair, I was the only one left.
Ouch.
I didn't want to join them 'witches' =P
And I didn't.

Library was the next destination.
I nearly died trying to find a book, thanks to Person 2, who should have known, having done volunteer work before.
And we met Person 4's boyfriend, for a second time.
He was shy, too shy.

I discussed after that with Person 1. We checked back on our sec 2 marks, and decided we should score like that for sec 4. We sorted out which subjects should be A, which subject should be B.
I hope this had helped Person 1.
I can do this if I try.
Or can I?

My whole life, I'm always waiting.
At 5 years old, I waited over half an hour for my mother to fetch me home.
At 7 years old, I got locked out and crying, waited for my someone to return.
At 8-12 years old, I either waited for the bus, or my mother.
At 13 years old, I waited for my lil brother to get ready on a daily basis each morning
At 14 years old, I waited for something that was not going to happen.
At 15 years old, I often waited for a friend in another class, and waited for other friends to finish their business.
All this while, I waited for people, for something good, to come my way.
All this while, neither people, or things, happen to me.
No one special came, no things special happened.
After all that waiting.
At 16 years old, I shall wait by my will, and leave when I want to.

posted by Michelle @ 2:38 PM