Mow.

Yesterday

I woke up feeling terrible... a serious sore-throat. I've already suspected it was going to be one of my worse days.. true enough. I cried. Haha, yeah, in class.. no one saw cause I turned away and held them back, which is something I hate to do. It was when I got back my physics and realized how awful life can be. What do you think I got? xD I was furious with myself for letting something small get to me; I told myself to smile.. things could have been worse.

Sure enough, things got worse. I was just telling Shi Ting that I usually get a fever once a year, and that this year I haven't had one, and KABOOM, I fell sick. There are various reasons why I suddenly had a fever, but I think physics was the last straw, and I sort of broke down =P

I saw my fingernails turn blue in Lit, but I said nothing. Though I already knew I was feeling an 'abnormal' kind of cold. Plus the rain. I must thank Ruo Nan; she was really kind... when she saw how I looked like a living corpse, she forced me to go down, eat something etc. Others didn't quite understand. Debby kept asking me to smile; Jia Ying kept asking me to drink water xP; Leong Yew kept asking me not to be emo (?). Shi Ting kept asking me if I wanted to go home.

I wanted to, of course. After recess, I was already feeling terrible. What had seemed like an hour passed was only 15 minutes. Even though I closed the windows near me and turned off the fan above me... I forced myself to hold on, even though I was shivering. I was positive my teeth chattered too =)

I call that determination when I willed myself to hang on till 2, but Ruo Nan called it stubborness.

I got an excuse to skip Chem remedial. The journey home... it seemed many times longer than before. I could barely put one foot ahead of the other. I took my temperature at home.

39.56 degrees celcius

And that was after I slept for two hours -_- Of course I was scared! What if it was dengue?

But at least I'm still alive. Amazingly.

Today

I'm proud of myself; for the first time, I fought back the high fever in only ONE day! Besides the slight cough today, I'm stronger than the other people in my class who also fell ill xP

The day actually started out fine. Though I was late. Mrs Toh is back!!! Bless you!! Finally, history lesson was lively again!! Yay ^^

I couldn't understand Chemistry though... hey, you can't blame me.. I was dying yesterday at chem lesson... do you think I could have listened?

Assembly was alright... the cooling system was kind of irritating... especially when you're standing at the direction it was blowing at. Leyu was cowering beneath the tables and looked so deep in thought xD Ah, the wise one THINKING!!!

After that though... more disappointment. English common test marks were not bad, but the other compos I wrote last term... I wasn't very happy with the marks. And then came Social Studies. I passed, but it wasn't worth all my memorizing. I felt like dying there and then. Besides, it's not like my disappearance from Earth would make a dramatic difference in anyone's lives.

Must stop my emo-ing... but I can't help it.. the common test was a complete disaster. And I do mean COMPLETE.

posted by Michelle @ 4:30 PM