Mow.

Josephine Michelle Darmawan is always losing things.
How to prove...?

I lost $10 today while buying my brother a birthday present. I gave an extra $10 note to the person in charge without even noticing. Either the person didn't notice or she noticed and took advantage of the situation. I'm currently typing this in the dark (it's a cloudy day) without the lights on because I feel awfully guilty for losing so much money. I'm trying to save electricity.

And so much more, you'll never imagine how much I've lost.

Argh. One day I might even lose people. Or worse, I might lose myself.
And for your info, "Josephine" is my catholic name. Which, actually doesn't really suit me. Josephine is the Josephine from 3e2 xD It doesn't seem to define me.

NO WONDER THE ART OF LOSING IS EASY TO MASTER!!!!!! ARGH, I MUST FIND THAT POET. SHE WAS SO RIGHT!
I need to add this into my expectation of the dream guy.
He needs to be someone who's not careless. Then it'll even out. Better still, he'll notice if I leave things behind. LOL.
BUT. I realize that the kind of guy someone wants will most likely NOT be the guy she'll get.
So whatever.

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On a happier note, I CUT-TED MY HAIR! And it's now pretty short. Normally, I would have freaked out if the hairdresser had cut my hair too short. But today, I was exceptionally calm. Strange.
She asked if I eat beef. What?!

You can choose to skip the part below. It's part of my rantings.

Crowfeather Speaks:
A Forbidden Love

Have you ever loved another cat so much it made your heart ache and your
fur tremble?

...

And the way I felt when I saw her--it made me angry to realize how little I
could control my feelings. Onewhisker asked me to escort her home. I went as
fast as I could; if I spoke to her, my secret might come spilling out.

As I left her camp, Leafpaw thanked me in this sweet, natural way, as if I
hadn't been behaving like a badger with its fur clawed off. I had to get out of
there before ever cat could see what I was trying to so hard to fight.

...

I loved Leafpaw, and I told her so. From the look in her eyes, I knew she
felt the same way. I'd seen the same look in Feathertail's eyes... but this was
different. This was more dangerous, more forbidden.

...

The future was terrifying, but we could face it together... our pelts
brushing, our tails twined. Our hearts in love, forever.

*sssccccrrrreeeaaaammmmssss and nearly dies* Okay, it was so CHEESY.
SHORT EXPLANATION:

Above is clips from a book based on the popular series (more like in america), Warriors. It centers on oneshots of cats on how they feel on certain events, cause the original books never got into their point of views.

Crowfeather is a cat who comes from a Clan of cats called WindClan. Get that? On a journey, he fell in love with an older RiverClan cat named Feathertail.
The rules state that cats from other Clans cannot cannot fall in love. So he broke the rules.
Then Feathertail died. So sad. No offence, she was never my fav character.
Anyway, he was devastated, so he requested his end name 'feather' when his rank was raised to a warrior.

Theeeeeennnnnnnnnnnnnn.... he met this ThunderClan cat named Leafpaw. She's younger though, and a sort of healer. First, he was not supposed to love another Clan cat. Second, medicine cats are strictly forbidden to fall in love.
Double forbidden.

BUT THAT'S NOT WHAT I'M ANGRY ABOUT!!!! After the "our hearts in love, forever =.= =.= =.=", I started to dislike Crowfeather. He did run away with Leafpaw, so romantic, but after they decided to return, he like, completely forget her or something.
He found another female cat in his own Clan this time.
And the next time he saw Leafpaw, Leafpool already, he treated her with hostility.
What the?!
What happened to the stupid "our hearts in love, forever"?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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The same thing happened with Brightheart, whose face was scarred by the dogs. Cloudtail had told her "you'll always be beautiful to me" and had remained so devoted that it touched the hearts of readers.
But when later later, Daisy came ambling along with her kittens, he was like, love-struck by her or something? =.= Well, the book didn't really say that. But it was obvious.

When Brightheart scolded Daisy's kit, Mousekit, for being really naughty, he complained to Daisy, "that ugly cat sccaarred me" -whinewhinewhine-. And guess what Cloudtail did?
!!!! >=((
He scolded Brightheart. He told her they were just kits. And he couldn't be that blind not to see Brightheart wince at the previous comment about her being ugly.
*screams and nearly died again*

Oh man. I nearly cried for Brightheart.
Even though all these are all childish cat fiction, it's somehow like that in reality.
Things like that could happen.
='(

We Need To Talk
by Victoria Holmes

Setting: On the border of ThunderClan and WindClan

Leafpool: Crowfeather, wait!

Crowfeather: What?! Leafpool, what are you doing here?

Leafpool: I...I wanted to see you.

Crowfeather (Wary, glancing around him to check no one's watching):
Why?

Leafpool (surpised): Because it's moons since I spoke to you! And...and
there's something I think you should know.

Crowfeather (bitter): No, there isn't, Leafpool. You don't have to tell me
anything any more. We belong to different Clans, remember?

Leafpool: Why are you being like this? It was hard for me too, you know.
But ThunderClan needs me to be their medicine cat. I don't have any
choice.

Crowfeather: You did have a choice, and you chose to stay with them! Look,
I shouldn't be talking to you. What if someone sees us? My Clanmates have only
just begun to trust me again, and that's mostly thanks to Nightcloud.

Leafpool: Nightcloud? Why?

Crowfeather (looking uncomfortable): She...she had my kits last moon.
Onestar's going to announce it at the next Gathering.

Leafpool (stunned, in a small voice): Oh. I didn't know.

Crowfeather: Well, what did you think I'd do? Let my Clanmates go on
thinking I was more loyal to ThunderClan? Nightcloud's a great cat, and a good
mother.

Leafpool (cutting him off): You were right, Crowfeather. We don't have
anything to say to each other now. Goodbye.

(more conversations here as cats from both sides joined them. yadayadayada,
talk of fighting, much hostility. then somehow the topic strayed to the traitor,
hawkfrost's, death. Tornear challenged Hawkfrost's brother, Brambleclaw.)

Brambleclaw: Hawkfrost's death has nothing to do with you. He was a traitor
to the warrior code and RiverClan are well rid of him.

Crowfeather (looking at Leafpool): Oh yes, ThunderClan cats always do what
the warrior code tells them to.

Leafpool: That's not fair, Crowfeather.

(okay. I was really beginning to hate Crowy here. Leafpool ran away and
betrayed her Clan to be with him. And look at this script!! Fine, maybe Crowfeather do feel sad inside, but he could have treated her better. He hurt Leafpool. It's a bonus script, by the way. Something that happened that wasn't mentioned in the
series.)

-END RANT-

Tomorrow is my brother's birthday. His party is on saturday. Who wants to come?

Hmm, yep, I definitely crap a lot. Congratulations if you've reached here without skipping any part of the post =)

I'm stopping here because my eyes hurt T_T It's getting darker every minute.

posted by Michelle @ 3:58 PM