Mow.

Jitters

School is starting next Tuesday, and I'm feeling the nervousness. I just received an email from the TA for my Business, Government and Society class and well, everything sounds so serious and it's just a whack in my head to let me know that hey, university is REALLY starting, no joke. It sounds like the first few weeks are gonna be busy already and this is only one out of four courses ._.
Furthermore I am making plans to commit myself to a lot more things that I hope I can handle. I still want to hold on to my MBS work shifts to earn the extra cash, I registered for dance lessons with Wei Yan and she wants it twice a week, I still have organ with the exam due November and my teacher reminding me constantly that it's rare to pass this grade with one try ._.
To add on to that I still want to join a CCA of course. It'll either be back to Fencing for me or a new sports.
After that i STILL want to join another club CCA LOL.
Kill me naoooooo.

Oh and I got soooo pissed when I saw that several lessons for BGS were shifted to Saturdays, because HEY that's my working date! ):
My $$!! Haha!
I am pretty certain that SMU is more expensive than NTU in terms of campus life (although SMU has no proper campus). The food, the course (Biz vs Psyc = more presentations or formal wear or whatttt), the lessons (because Studio Wu is so conveniently at SMU basement)... etc.
My brain is pretty fried now because so many things are happening at one go and I was used to such slack stimulation and a fixed schedule, i.e. eat, sleep, go work, eat, sleep again, go out with friends.
Now I've got a lot of admin stuff to settle with SMU, textbooks to buy, commitments to handle. To add on to that I've got so many talks to go to because I missed them. Darn!

AND, why the heck am I still a registered student in NTU?! Why the heck did I receive smses asking me to go register for NTU ezlink card. Why the heck am I still able to add/drop courses in NTU?
I hope they faster process so they won't end up charging me school fees from NTU -.- that'll be some messed up shit.
Ugh. They just won't let me forget what I gave up ._. it's still bittersweet to me yknow. Seeing that I have to study about the economy when really, I'm honestly more interested to learn about memories and cognitive psychology.
But I guess I don't have the confidence that I will want to practice psychology my whole life. Business kinda opens me to a lot more prospects and jobs that I will probably enjoy more.

I have so many post-its on my macbook and they all say the same things over and over again LOL.
I have a tendency to keep creating them because I don't do them.

Today we're going to visit Tivona, most likely, at CJ, and I'll collect my cert. Hoping that I'll meet some of my teachers! ^^


Too many things to do, too little time. In some ways, you giving up on us was a good idea, wasn't it?
Or was it me giving up on us?
Yeah, it was my efforts that faltered.
But when you asked me for my answer, the one I had in mind was to keep trying.
Yet there was no point because you were tired, too, tired enough to want to give up.



I am keeping this blog regardless of whether or not there are viewers. I just kinda want to keep a track of my life, because when I read back to my archives there were a lot of memories that I barely remember, but I'm glad I noted down (:

posted by Michelle @ 1:13 PM